We are governed by the psychology conditions we have. If we are to understand our actions and take control of them, then we must first examine our past and confront the hurt we shoulder. WARNING: This article contains graphic sexual material including rape and abuse. Allow me to cover my sexual past with you […]
Breaking it Down
Bit by bit, my therapist and I have been pulling apart my personality. Like a ball filled with hundreds of slip knots, gently—and some days not so gently—we tug at the strings and watch the ball fall apart, one knot at a time. The results are always the same. There is a moment of comprehension […]
Agnosticism
I love religion 🙂 More specifically, I love the philosophical branch of theology and studied the history of, psychology of, growth, and development of religion. I am a Weak Agnostic borderline Atheist. From Wikipedia Agnosticism has sometimes been divided into two categories in academic and philosophical treatment: Strong agnosticism (also called “hard”, “closed”, “strict”, or […]
Inside the mind of a bully
“I don’t understand why my step-brother, Shaun, hit me. I just…” I trailed off. I couldn’t explain how much I was at a loss for words with my therapist. This is one of the recent conversations I had with her. The explanation has stayed with me. I can’t get it out of my head. Passive, […]
Broken Art Gallery
I will never grow tired of seeing the work Indigo Forest Designs! Again, phenomenal work! I give you “Broken” Read more on “Broken” Now available for pre-order at… Amazon All other Formats Release on 11 September 2015. Broken will be made available on paperback and all major eBook formats. Broken is a work of creative […]
Masquerade
Masquerade. Painted faces on parade. Masquerade. Hide your face so the world will never find you. – The Phantom of the Opera by Andrew Lloyd Weber I have sung that to myself at least three times a day, every day, for twenty years. And now…I. Am tired. This thing inside of me is very much […]
The Day After
I can’t stop writing today. I do this. It comes in waves. I have a bad day, I break and suddenly see more connections. They next day, I review my new perspective and have to relearn and re-examine everything all over again. This is how I am Unbreaking Me 🙂 During my break down yesterday, […]
Hyperarousal
I am sitting here now thinking back over it all. They say awareness is the first step and now I see it. I can see it all so clearly that I wonder why I couldn’t see it before. Perspective. Everything really is all about changing perspective. I decided a long time ago that I couldn’t […]
Anger
“He saw death for the first time in his life,” I heard my husband say. I shook my head and I gasped. “What?” I felt the anger rise. Anger. Now that was an emotion I never allowed. “That day that he was all alone and he thought his brother might die…he finally saw death. Since […]
To the lonely and the scared
Gotta write. I see Gene Kelly standing in the middle of a mock up stage crying out, “Gotta Dance!” I’m at my computer, trying to work on the blog tour, but my mind wanders and pulls me away until it hurts me. I must write. I must. Gotta write. … Hello you. That’s right, I’m […]