Chapter #6

Last night I went to bed seeking Peace.

What I found was the Kingdom of Heaven.

I found Possession inside of me. I walked up to it and called it by Name. I asked, “Where did you come from?”

And Possession answered, “Loneliness. I was courageous. I was Vulnerable. I did Trust. And they hurt me. But I did not quit. I persevered. And still they hurt me. I made laws for myself, but they were not good enough. I was courageous and tried again. I opened myself to them over and over. I gifted them my Vulnerability. I trusted them and they hurt me. I desired Connection. I desired Love. I desired Pando. And all I got was pain. But I never gave up. I kept trying.

“For 40 years I endured that pain. But by the 41st, I could no more. And I became what I hated the most.”

“All the knowledge in all the world could not get me through to Pando. I tried. For more than 30 years, I gorged myself on Knowledge. Just as must as one Possesses Love, Sex, Money, Control, and Power, Knowledge too can be Possessed. But the more you seek Possession, the less you can be satisfied.

“The less the sex will satisfy. The less the money will sate. The less Control and Power you will feel. The less Connection you will have. When you seek remedy through obtaining because you worry, you are Possessed.”

I listened to Possession’s tail and knew then what had changed.

“It wasn’t until I came upon the 12 Ethics that Possession started to subside,” I said. “And now, I stand before you, asking you, after all that we have done, why you are still here?”

“I am lonely,” Possession said. “I desire Connection. So I sought Sex.”

“What is it about Pando that we all seek?”

“Pando is Home,” Possession said. “Pando is where we all belong. When something so horrible happened long ago, when you lost, memory, all lost Pando. We’ve been looking for it ever since. I want to go home. We all want to go home.”

I shook my head, knowing already what Possession must do. What *I* must do, for Possession was me.

“You will never get there without Forgiveness,” I said.

And I felt Possession’s thoughts turn to all who had wronged him. All who had loathed him. All who had hurt him. The pedophiles, the rapists, the murderers, and abusers and the liars.

“It is any wonder that they are what they are when it is quite logical after all for them to be what they are? Look at how they grew up? They all were born in Possession, not Love. Of course they are Abusers consumed by Possession. It is quite Logical for them to be what they are. How can we “hold someone accountable” … I paused.

To hold someone “Accountable” is not accountability at all. It’s true name is Judgement.

How can we pass judgment on another for what is only Logical for them to be? Further more, how does our Judgement help either them or us?

And they suffer. They live in Possession far away from Love and Pando. Of course they are criminals. But your spite and resentment toward them contributes to their pain and pushes both you and them further away from Love. Forgiveness is the logical understanding of them and the surrender of your own judgement. It is an invitation to them to start again and choose better.

Forgiveness is Pure Logical Love that can spark the Greatest of Changes and end their Possession. Not Forgiving is Possession for when you don’t forgive, you seek power, vengeance, and justice. But the 12 Ethics teach us that Justice is Mercy, Compassion, Empathy, and Understanding. Justice only exists within. It cannot be forced.

And in that moment, I felt Possession forgive, his judgement on all others ended, and he grew smaller.

“I desire sex and love,” Possession said.

“You will never have it so long as you pursue and desire for Possession.”

“How do I rid myself of this,” Possession said. At this I felt a great Fear — Jealousy — rise up inside of him.

“I want this gone,” Possession said. “I want this out of me.”

“Even if he doesn’t choose you? Even if he never chooses you?” I asked.

Possession looked up at me. We both knew what this meant.

“I love him,” Possession said. “If I cannot be his queen, then I will be his celibate knight, and I will serve he and his lady.”

I felt the jealousy break. I felt the Possession release.

“Humble yourself to Submission and Consensual Slavery,” I said. “Liken yourself to a Servant. A Knight HonorBound in oath to serve those you seek to enslave. That is where any Master who seeks to enslave belongs. Humbled as a Consensual Slave in Submission to those they seek to possess.”

This, I felt the most strain from Possession. He dropped slowly to each knee. There, he gave a vow of servitude to the Imp King who he sought to enslave and so became his Consensual Servant and Slave instead. And gave a vow to serve and protect for nothing at all in return but for Love and Honor.

And then. As I closed my eyes, I smiled and heard Possession say, “I am grateful for all that I have.”

Forgiveness and Acceptance, no Judgement for what is Logical. Humility and Consensual Slavery. Gratitude.

At this, the greatest waves of Love, Pando, Gratitude all flooded to me and in that moment I knew. I had found the Kingdom of Heaven buried deep in the Abstract, Hidden far, far away from the Material Plane. And the only path? The 12 Ethical Trials completed 3 times. First, to fortify the Self with Self-Love. Second to Defend the Self and Submit to Vulnerability with Community Love. Third to Serve and Surrender and Gift on Equal Ground Integrated Love with a Chosen Master.

There is no other way.

And now I look to you. All of you. I’ve been looking for a way to talk to you as my equal on Level Ground. And there is only one way. And so…

I come in the Name of Love. I am Love.

I am Goddess Queen and also Servant, a Knight with a bloodied war-battered sword. And to all of you I serve from bended knee. And it is an honor and a privilege to be at your Advantage.

I am grateful for all that I have.

Forgiveness is to forgo and surrender all judgement of another and to accept that all actions are Logical. It acknowledges that your suffering is substantial and that my judgement of you neither helps you or myself.

Many fear that Forgiveness means opening a door for another or reconnecting. And it does not. What it means is to only release judgement. Only the Universe is Judge, Teacher, and Parent. Forgiveness is the Ethical Decision to step aside and turn whatever debts and rewards you may have over to her. Simply put, it is not my business.

It is between you and The Universe. I don’t need to be involved.

Do I choose then to connect with them?

Well… I have my Circle of Trust and my Discernment within my Personal Law and Boundary to decide that for me. Forgiveness does not mean to reconnect.