This is a Story… I have been wanting to tell. Over and over again outside of Time, there was the day when the Sides came down. It was the day when, as I stepped into the Center of Zero where the Beginning begins and the End ends, the Material Plane and the Abstract Plane integrated. […]
Lost and Found
Almost all hurt that can be cured by the written word. I wish I knew why. A week ago, I miscarried the twins I was carrying. For one blissful week, I had his babies in me. I love my husband. I mean, I LOVE…my husband. He is the air I breathe. My strength to stand. […]
Back to New York
It’s been so long since I’ve written to you, dear reader… I went back to New York. On 19 June 2018, after seventeen years away, I went home. If you haven’t been following, I was raped on 9/11. Prior to 9/11, I had been in NYC once, twice a month. My earliest childhood memories were […]
2017: Looking Back
I’ve been quiet lately. Too busy in life to find time to write…but I miss writing. I miss you. The year is almost over and I feel I should tell you about mine. I went on Walk-About. I took a mental journey. I spent a year reflecting on me and…well…this is what I have learned […]
Vipassana: Understanding Calm
Since I was fifteen years old, I have dedicated my life to philosophy, religion, and the pursuit of my happiness. I have since refrained from such religious labels and strayed from categories like Christian, Atheist, Hindu, Muslim, or Buddhist. While I have been clear on what I don’t believe, I have been less clear on […]
Happiness: Rest
In pauses, we rest, we clear our minds, we think and slow down. Only when we slow down can we start to see, smell, hear, and experience everything we’ve been missing. This, dearest reader, this is where happiness awaits. It is in the silence. It is in the calm. It is in the moment that […]
Happiness: Finding Direction
With my new life, my new growth, my new me I was able to embrace the world around me. I think back often to the day I stepped out of the other worlds that were in my head. I felt I had awakened. I had. I left my room and noticed my children had all […]
Happiness: Mental Cleansing
If ever there was a day that I felt changed, it was the day I walked into therapy and smiled. Just smiled. I had nothing new to talk about. Nothing new to report. I talked about my new life. My new me. So many possibilities were opened up. I wondered often, “I’m through the dark […]
Happiness: Confronting the Darkness
If Step #1 to happiness is committing to totally honesty with yourself, then step #2 would have to be confronting the darkness. Unearthing all the pain, the hurt, the past you’ve ever survived. And you have survived. Pain, suffering, and trauma isn’t just something you experience. It’s what you survived. By default, this makes you […]
Happiness
“To be nobody but yourself in a world that is doing its best, night and day, to make you into everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight.” E.E. Cummings I have to ask, why do we keep choosing to fight this battle? Breathe in. And out. And smile. […]