I’ve been quiet lately. Too busy in life to find time to write…but I miss writing. I miss you. The year is almost over and I feel I should tell you about mine. I went on Walk-About. I took a mental journey. I spent a year reflecting on me and…well…this is what I have learned […]
Vipassana: Understanding Calm
Since I was fifteen years old, I have dedicated my life to philosophy, religion, and the pursuit of my happiness. I have since refrained from such religious labels and strayed from categories like Christian, Atheist, Hindu, Muslim, or Buddhist. While I have been clear on what I don’t believe, I have been less clear on […]
Happiness: Rest
In pauses, we rest, we clear our minds, we think and slow down. Only when we slow down can we start to see, smell, hear, and experience everything we’ve been missing. This, dearest reader, this is where happiness awaits. It is in the silence. It is in the calm. It is in the moment that […]
Happiness: Finding Direction
With my new life, my new growth, my new me I was able to embrace the world around me. I think back often to the day I stepped out of the other worlds that were in my head. I felt I had awakened. I had. I left my room and noticed my children had all […]
Happiness: Mental Cleansing
If ever there was a day that I felt changed, it was the day I walked into therapy and smiled. Just smiled. I had nothing new to talk about. Nothing new to report. I talked about my new life. My new me. So many possibilities were opened up. I wondered often, “I’m through the dark […]
Happiness: Confronting the Darkness
If Step #1 to happiness is committing to totally honesty with yourself, then step #2 would have to be confronting the darkness. Unearthing all the pain, the hurt, the past you’ve ever survived. And you have survived. Pain, suffering, and trauma isn’t just something you experience. It’s what you survived. By default, this makes you […]
Happiness
“To be nobody but yourself in a world that is doing its best, night and day, to make you into everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight.” E.E. Cummings I have to ask, why do we keep choosing to fight this battle? Breathe in. And out. And smile. […]
Deadened to The Walking Dead
Today is Wednesday. For me, that means I slow down for the day and avoid all work. It seems weird to most that I would take a full day off every Wednesday, but it recently occurred to me, we don’t call it “Hump day” for nothing. I took the push out of hump day. The […]
Unbroken
“I’m sorry. I have to end our commitment.” I run these words over and over in my head lately. I can’t stop replaying them. “It’s been a while since we last spoke.” I looked at William at my kitchen table. The afternoon Irish sun blazed through the open window. From here I could see the […]
Breathe. Let go. Smile.
Mediation is the undoing of trauma. Yoga is mediation for your body. – Angela B. Chrysler I feel it. The end of my journey. The end. Something you never quite recognize until you can look back and see just how far you’ve come. Something you never quite recognize until you can look ahead and smile. […]