As the world knows, today is the 14th anniversary of 9/11. For me, it means a lot more than that. The trauma of 9/11 hit me on a very personal level—this is not to say there are others who did not feel this event just as deeply. I am simply reflecting on my own unique […]
Face the Fear
I have been terrified of spiders since I was 8 years old and a nest hatched on me. This is me facing the fear. lol… I thought I handled it well. 🙂 Spider web A photo posted by Angela B. Chrysler (@abchrysler) on Sep 4, 2015 at 5:07am PDT A photo posted by Angela B. […]
Back to 9-11
I started writing to cope with the pain when I was 12. I know no other way to cope but to write. And so…it’s time I write this. “He left me!” I shrieked. “New York was burning and he raped me…as the towers fell! People were dying. Children lay dying, and he raped me! […]
In after thought….
I wrote this as the afterword for Broken then decided not to include it based on the advise of a good friend. I can not delete a single word I write. I ever. And so…I’m posting it here. First, I wish to say that the individuals portrayed by Shaun, Elizabeth’s Father, and Scott no […]
Runaway Train
You know when you just see something and you’re so moved by it you just enter a trance until you feel the hairs on your arm stand up? Yeah…First time watching this video…or hearing this song…or hearing this band… And I went, “Yep! That is what BPD feels like!”
7 Step Path to Recovery
Matthew Perry and 30 years of drugs… As some of you may know, I endured 30 years of trauma that ranged from rape and torture, to animal abuse and pedophilia. I also witnessed an exorbitant number of deaths at an early age. I did all of this without any therapy or medication. Two things my […]
It All Comes Together
Mom is depressed and withdrawn today. She just came off a very low low. This is the sign I put on the fridge this morning to notify the children which mood I’m in. If I could, I would pause life here. Right here. I would curl into the corner of my room, pull my knees […]
Slide into the depths of my Subconscious
It is as bleak as it sounds here. I need to make this clear. I am a philosopher. I am not a psychologist. All psychological ramblings on this site that are written by me are purely philosophical and are only based on my own philosophy. It is not medical advice. It has no grounding whatsoever […]
Physical Loneliness
“She’s screaming.” My words are but a whisper, but my therapist looks up from her notes. I wasn’t surprised that she heard me. “What is she saying?” “No words. Just screams.” “And why do you think that is? What do you think she’s screaming about?” What indeed…Damned if I knew. Angel just always screams. I […]
Starting Over
We are governed by the psychology conditions we have. If we are to understand our actions and take control of them, then we must first examine our past and confront the hurt we shoulder. WARNING: This article contains graphic sexual material including rape and abuse. Allow me to cover my sexual past with you […]